turning a new leaf

it's been three years since i moved to this crazy city and after all the whining and griping about wanting to be back in san francisco, i am finally making the move back. it's funny that when the opportunity was given to me, i actually went back and forth and was mentally tormented for days. i made lists of pros and cons and i talked to everyone and anyone about it. the bottom line was that i was literally handed the thing i wanted most on a silver platter and i needed to take it.

i have a lot of mixed feelings about leaving this city. i think my first year and a half i was hating it and really wanted to go home. then i started to meet more people and hang out with certain people consistently and felt more comfortable with the city and my job. although i don't yet feel that i'm ready to leave, a part of me does wonder when i would exactly have been ready (if ever). i have yet to figure out what more i wanted out of the city in order to make me "ready" and i will not be able to find out....and i think i am content with that.